gun supplier

Guess who is the supplier of toy guns?!?

RAW UNCUT

I have not posted any thing about the recent SN250 because the emotions from it are very raw. Sadly, the negative emotion is really more powerful than the positive one. Being a "historical" race, I only want to write about the positive side of it.

Thus, I was planning of writing about it when the negative memory of it becomes blurry.

Then, suddenly, you will see people posting about the negative side, "cheating," of it. The chance of those bad thoughts getting blurry seems will take longer.

greatful

I think I haven't done any grateful cheery posts for the longest time. And, I feel I'm such a drama queen. I guess the thing is the most I feel writing down is when I'm confused or down in the dumps. Thus, my blog posts look like I hate the world.

Anyhoo, I'm thankful for my babies. Damn, I'm the luckiest to have them all dirty, bratty, smelly, loud, that only a mother like me could love them to bits.

from meg's blog (my most favorite blog post in the WWW forever and ever)

For having a bit of an odd family. I guess, I have to accept that this family would not qualify for a magazine cover.

For the gift of running. I will never be fast or efficient or a strong runner. But running has given me more than those, I could not ask for more. =)

For a not-so-rosy path of life. Because it always pushes us, to dig deeper, to think beyond, to weed out, and to accept life as it is.

For gift of friendships, offline and online, and acquaintances, and in betweens. 

photo from stacey cardoso

Photo from G Runners

It's been a long time for this people to be in this kind of photo op. We'll be posting a story of this run soon in aktib.ph. =)

Is it Netherlands or Holland?

So what's the official name of the country of Amsterdam? Is it Netherlands or Holland?

I just kind of thought of it, which felt a bit stupid as Mark has been doing stuff for that country for some time already; I should know about it by now.

Anyhoo, I'm creating a post for it for keepsake just so I would know and everyone knows that after 33 years of existence, finally Mark John has gone to a country that requires some amount of documents just to get a visa to center.

Has been life different? I think our life is still the same. It's still the same "risky" unstable life like from the start.

I guess the difference now is that I cannot be so vocal about my whining about how risky and unstable our life. And, I cannot loudly say my husband is so stupid for getting a CEO title. I mean I don't want to scare the families of his workmates, in case they would come across my blog.

CEO is not something new in our life. Mark always comes up with whatever position / labels he could add to add to his name. I think he even called his self worse, like "visionary." Feeling Steve Jobs. (Note: Anyone can be a CEO. You can do it in linkedin. If you want a more official one, you can register some business name at DTI and you can make yourself CEO of it. No need to be in some Korean-novela kind of life.)

But I guess it's different when he was CEO over a group of innocent college friends, and the CEO now. Whatever decisions he made before will only affect like 2 or 3 people who did not really know they're already affected.

Now, it's different. And, I can't even freely whine about it. Knowing myself who loves to puke my gut out empty on every little things without any privacy setting, it's like biting my tongue always. Like I cannot say that hey, it's stupid to bank our security on a company. But good news is that security is in our hands.

Can I say how I wish this CEO thing would be over on a positive note the soonest?!? I want my programmer back!

So yes, back to his very first farthest trip. It's hard to get excited about it, when I know that there's that pressure for it to have a positive outcome.

throw-app thursday

wakulu

I promised to do the Help site of aktib.ph before May ends. And, since May is almost going to end, I'm now cramming. =) I love making Help pages, which nobody ever read. =)

But before that let me reminisce. For some reason aktib.ph reminds me of wakulu. And, I guess it's because, the programmers working on it are those who worked on wakulu before. It's like having a reunion.

And, I can't help but see the differences now. I always thought Fred and Norlan are good at programming back then. I mean they're great at their craft. But now, the difference is that they're probably more mature, and knows pretty well how to go around building an app. As such, it feels more relaxed now. Or, maybe, I just don't know. =)

While I could not bother much about the Help pages like how I fuss about it before.

I guess it probably has to come down to the point that after all the apps and downs, we know when to panic and not.

Or, I dunno. =)

Scheduled depression

This seems to be a trend already. That every last week of month, depression lurks in. I thought it's just PMS (pre-menstrual symptoms, blame the hormones going haywire). I tend to hate myself, how lousy it has been, and wants to strangle it for not doing "hard" enough. And i feel useless that my living adds no meaning to the world, I might as well tie a rope around my neck and hang myself.  Turn the lights off, Play some emo music in the background, avril lavigne is that you?!?

Maybe partly due to PMS but I realized now that maybe because it's end of the month when "working" takes toll, and add in the uneasiness when looking at the the to-do list, nothing much has moved. Maybe it's what Mark has been reciting over and over again as "productive paranoia" minus the productive. 

And, it's like "i'm a teenage dirtbag, baby."

Hello, self! Here we are again.

A blog within a blog

My family as introduced by Meg.

Screenshot of Meg's latest post.

Social or Like Marketing: Hoping I won't go this far

Take note of the most important note.

I'm guilty of doing this thing. But I hope I was not this "funny" (for lack of term).

I'm not fond of marketing. But I also believe that unless you tell the world about you or whatever you are doing, no one will know. Not because you are not great enough, but people will thought that you do not need their "reaction." If Samsung or jobstreet and other big popular companies need to do marketing just shows no one may be exempted from doing it.

But I hope marketing honchos can be more creative than hoarding likes.

Here's hoping I won't go this far. But we'll never know.

Ow, please don't forget to like this.

Artsy

This is the last pitcure for my art school

In the beach

This is the part i'm playing in the sand with my friends. The name of my friends are mia pia carlo and therese we have lots of fun in the sand and somtime i get wet in the water and we have dinner

    

Dresses

In this part i'm in the dressing for my flower girl otfiet for the wedding dress

Artsy school

This is my artsy day. When its my turn to raise i stand up let my art see by ever body.

27 Dresses

Two more weddings these coming weekends, and another 1 this December, I need a new "formal" dress. The one I wore at the artsy fartsy cousin's wedding is too revealing in upper part, showing my cleavage and my back.

I have no problems with its sexiness except that I do not have boobs, and worse is that the scars from chaffing from my sports bra are showing. I looked like a battered wife.

I thought of picking some 2-piece dress so I could just replace the top. So here's what I came up first:

I looked like a character from El Filibusterismo, a not-crazy looking Sisa. And so I realized my fashion taste is stuck back in highschool plays.

So I gave up the mix-and-match idea. My talent at matching outfits is just HORRIBLE!!! 

So I went with one-piece dresses:

Another thing i soooo hate about buying clothes is the back-and-forth trip to the fitting room. 

There were more clothes I tried but some I could not figure out how to put them on.

As much as I want to see my friends get married and all, I hope I can just skip the "dress" part.

Presscon notes

When I first got invited to a sporting presscon event, I had no idea what I should do. So I just follow what other sports writer from other news media.

They would pull out their notebook or pad paper, and jot down something. 

So as to look someone legit reporter, I also do the same. 

 Then the following day, I will look for their news report, and just get info from them and mashed them up. 

Postal Mail?

I got some sort of claim stub from the Philippine postal. I wonder what it is. I don't remember ordering something online. But that's not the point.

It's just cute to have someone sent me some parcel using the Philippine postal.